Friday, September 17, 2010

Still Here!

I admit, I've been a very bad blogger lately. I'm sorry. I have thought about writing now and then. I think my last post was a short one about my nephew. He lives in Detroit. I went to visit him this summer when my sister had a baby. That's a very difficult thing for me to say, "My sister had a baby," because that's not the full truth. My sister had twins, a boy and a girl. The boy lived for 5 hours. She found out at 34 weeks into the pregnancy that the boy's lungs were not developing. Those last 6 weeks were horrible. I went to be her for the birth and the death. It was so sad to look into his eyes knowing that he wouldn't be there for long, knowing that he didn't have a chance.

The baby girl is healthy and home. The boy was buried with his great grandfather. The funeral was 2 weeks after the birth and I wasn't able to return for it. I still wish I had.

So it's taken me a long time to go back to "normal." I still feel like nothing will ever be the same. But slowly happiness has returned.

Yesterday I drove my 6 year old and one of his teammates to soccer practice. From the backseat I heard my son telling his friend, "Our car is really old. It's from the nineteen hundreds!"

He is right. The car is a 1999. But I never heard it put that way before!

And one more thing that my 8 year old said when we were at a restaurant. He ordered pasta with butter sauce and french fries. (You can only get away with that when you're 8!) My husband asked him how he liked his dinner.

My 8 year old said, "It's good, but I like mom's better."

I smiled.

Then he added, "the one she makes from the box."

My husband laughed.


TALON said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, Cookie. There are no words to express how painful that must have been for your family.

You have to hand it to your son - at least he's honest :)

Lynn said...

Oh Cookie - I'm so sad to hear about the baby's death. How excrutiatingly that must have been for your family. I can certainly understand your absence.

And isn't it wonderful that mom's cooking is just always the best no matter what?

Lu's Place said...

As we grow older sad moments seem to be more frequent. I am so happy to see you back to make my life happier. When I see you on line I always smile even before I read what you have to say!
Please give your sister and her family my sympathy and always know that I am thinking of you

hokgardner said...

I am so sorry about your nephew. I can't even imagine the grief. I am glad you were able to be there with your sister.

slow panic said...

i can not convince my kids homemade mac and cheese is better then the box.

The Mother said...

Children are not the best judges of food. I've given up. They can eat out of boxes if they want to.

Joyce-Anne said...

I have tears in my eyes, I'm so sorry for the loss of your newborn nephew. You, your sister and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

girlytwins said...

Oh Cookie my heart hurts for you and your family. I will say an extra prayer for your sister tonight. Hugs to you my friend.

girlytwins said...

Your boys are awesome! Sounds like my girls :) Compliments with a side note LOL.